MY PANIC

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In great fear

So great my fear

The thought of it makes me shiver 

So great do I shiver

Because I think of it 

So deeply do I think of it

My bones become weak

So weak

That I don't think straight

You may wonder why?

Yes why, why?

It makes others happy

So so happy

Why making me sad

Seriously so sad

It is my panic

My panic

It's my panic of getting older

Older than my recent year

The thought makes me shiver

The thought of getting older

The thought of getting to accountability

Accountability of my own life

The thought of getting to adulthood

The thought of facing the world and answering "what's your achievement?"

Thought of having to think of others (husband and children)

Before thinking of yourself

It makes me crazy

So, so crazy

It may seem stupid

So ...stupid

But it's my fear

It's my panic

My panic of getting older

Older than 17

Moving to 18

Hitting 20

Rocking 30

Aging 50

Not knowing when you clock 70,80 and so on 


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